may Allah bless all of us..
dunia n akhirat iA..
urm.. another 87days iA..
just about 2 month plus minus all the cuti, maen2, jalan2 days..
dr ckp xyah r cuti raya korban.. nnti korg yg t'korban.. haha..
sgt x lawak..
sgt mnakutkan nk lalui bnda yg sama skali lg..
i though that i'm ok.. just seminggu dua sedih, nangis2..
then i though that i'm ok...
the 1st 3 months went smoothly..
xder mimpi apa2 mlm2..
xder mslh nk tido..
ltk kpala kat bntl trus lelap..
msk bln keempat sumer bnda rasa x kena..
rasa nk nangis tp x ley nangis..
mlm2 mmpi mcm2..
pusing2 golek2 sejam baru bley tido... pikir mcm2..
don't know if the 1st 3 months is just denial stage..
n skrg baru msk acceptance stage..
am i'm ok??
i don't know myself..
it's ok not to be ok i guess...
at least i'm aware that i need to do something..
need to push myself harder..
this anxiety won't go away i guess..
just need to do my best...
n growing stronger day by days..
not much time left..
cannot bazirkan perca2 masa yg ada..
wish me luck.. coz i really need it right now..
coz i think i've used up all of my luck from 1st till 5th year..
lucky to be at this state right now..
make me catch up all of the things that i need
to be the best doctor iA..